Still My Baby
by Nancy Van De Vaarst
In loving memory of Sara Theresa Van De Vaarst
But I know our journey will begin again,
The day God hands you back to me.
Maybe He'll change your hair, your sex.
But you'll still be my baby to me.
Well, our journey did begin again.
And this time we went a little longer.
But as much as I honestly loved you,
God's love was still much stronger.
At least I felt you move this time.
Your little flutters saying 'hi' to me.
There were only a few more months to go,
Before my precious little Sara I would see.
The pictures in my mind were already taken.
I saw you smiling and cooing and playing.
Oh, how I wanted you so much.
This time I just knew you'd be staying.
At least I know you are in good hands,
And surrounded by people who love you.
Your grandfather showing off his granddaughter,
Like a proud grandfather should do.
My favorite Aunt Theresa is with you too.
It is she that you were named after.
Along with so many other loved ones.
I can see the smiles and hear the laughter.
I will talk often to Dana and Nina,
Of their dear little sister they never met.
You will always be Mommy's and Daddy's little girl.
Trust me, we will never forget.
The day will come when we will meet,
And I will get to hold you finally.
I will never stop loving you Sara.
I miss you - love, Mommy. |
After miscarrying at 9 weeks, I got pregnant again 2 months later. This pregnancy went to 5 1/2 months. I knew I was having a girl. I felt her kick and watched my stomach grow. Then one day I didn't feel her anymore. Sara will always be one of my daughters; she just lives up in heaven with God. Her daddy, her sisters and I will always love Sara and always be her family. You may contact Nancy at vandevaa@us.ibm.com.
© October 1998 by Nancy Van De Vaarst. The author of this work has given full permission for its distribution, electronic or otherwise, as long as the entire work is presented in full, the author information from the bottom of the work is retained, and this copyright and permission is retained.
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