For MJ
by Blu Babe


I feel so alone

There are so many around me

Pushing me, nudging me 2 move on

2 forget about u

2 deny that u were real

That u lived

That u were a person just like me

I should cut my losses

That it's for the best, they say

But how can one be so cruel, I say

How can I deny life?!

Deny ur face

No matter how peaceful and still

U

U are beautiful

U are love, made from love

Made from God

U are truth

Truth that divided and spun in infinity

Truth that lept, stirred, and lay close 2 me

Truth that struggled and fought

Truth that too soon burst forth

A truth I could hold lovingly in trembling arms

A truth I could sweetly smell

I could touch

I could validate, protect, celebrate and vindicate

Even if for a small eternity

U were real

U ARE real!!

I don't care what they say

U are my joy

U are my SON!!


Blu Babe is a 30-something mother (still), living in the Southern part of the US who loves God, her family, her partner, and her child. This poem is a reflection of the anguish I faced during the first initial days following the loss of my son. It is also a testament to the loving connection mother and child from the womb and to the reaffirmation that we are still moms even though our children have gone before us. You may contact Blu at blubabe4901@aol.com.


© April 2001 by Blu Babe. This work is protected by copyright and may be distributed or published only with the express written permission from its author. You may, without permission, publish or otherwise provide the URL (web address) of this page.


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